Sunday, September 29, 2013

So SICK!

So excuse the quickness of this post, and the lack of posts before it, but let's just sum up my weekend in a few pictures. And by "weekend" I mean starting on Tuesday until now, this is what my life has been looking like....


Tuesday: Started with runny nose, cough, sore throat, fever, ya know the fun basics

 Wednesday: consisted of me going to the store and literally buying all of the sick people food I could buy. Also note my brother had to drive me to the store because I could barely get out of bed.

Thursday: I got my butt out of bed (thanks to a call from my doctor) to head to the health clinic on campus, and I was NOT happy about being out of bed.

Friday: after being up all night being sick and my fever spiking to around 102-103 and having severe abdominal pain, I ended up at the hospital drinking 32 oz of metallic tasting kool aid waiting for my CT scan. I finished it and after my CT did show up so clear, I have spent Friday, Saturday, and now Sunday night in the hospital. YAYYYY

So much for an exciting weekend recap. All I can say, is I have some of the best friends in the world, from brining me blankets and pillows and sweatshirts and coloring books and magazines and my shampoo and everything else in the world I could possibly ask for, they are above and beyond the best people I have in my life. Despite how this weekend did not exactly turn out the way I had planned on it, my friends and brother made it all the more bearable.

I'm sure once I'm out of the hospital and done processing everything that has been happening this weekend I will write a more composed post, but since I have been laying in a hospital bed all weekend with certain amounts of great drugs in my system, here are a few more entertaining pictures of my stay this weekend :) 

 I finally felt good enough so I sat in the chair and wrote emails to professors and Taylor decided to take my seat and catch up on some TV. The picture to the right is my amazing artistic talent when Paige was great enough to come bearing gifts for arts and crafts hour. That is Stevie's Cat's butt....so that's about where my day was everyone. 

Happy Weekend and start of the week everyone! Hope ya'lls' is better than mine! :) Now excuse me while I go cuddle in my comfy hospital bed all drugged up and fall asleep as I re-watch all the seasons of "New Girl" because I am depressed that I am finally all caught up.

Little Kate, OUT! 



Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Rails, Ragers, and Way too Many Snapchats

Happy Tuesday Everyone! Hopefully this post will be a little more upbeat than the last, and you all enjoying my "recap" of my weekend. Instead of doing a normal summary of what I did this weekend, I decided to do a little twist on it that is making me LOL as I read it. I realize after going through my 57 new pictures on my iphone from two days that there were a lot of "candid/embarassing/selfie" photos that I just couldn't get enough of. Not all of them are of me, and so sorry to any of my friends who are featured in this post, hanging out with me and my iphone is warning enough to know that whatever pictures I take are beyond your control :) 

First on our list, is this gem 


This was the result at the second stop of our little trip downtown this weekend. I was really excited about snap chatting everyone, but then decided I wanted to keep the pictures I was taking, so why not just screen shot them! 


Right after, 
Overall just a great quality picture. Disclaimer, those cups full of red liquid, those are what we like to call "Rails" which is basically about 7 shots of alcohol mixed with a little grenadine and some other crap, all for about $9, it's the signature drink at my local college bar, and you can't go to this bar without getting one. So that's a little insight to my night there. 

My friend Maria, super excited about her giant piece of Pizza. #drunkmunchies

Tailgating on Saturday for the VT game with a few of my sorority sisters, ya know us just trying to get a few cute senior sorority girl pics, and of course the guys taking it have to take 30 others while we are getting ready. #RUDE We all look so great, we know.


This magnificant picture is not actually a picture, but a screenshot of a video that was taken while we were tailgating. This is a wonderful action shot of my friend who decided to participate in a dunk-a-roo. What is a "dunk-a-roo?" You may ask. Well, for those of you who don't know....it goes a little something like this. 2 Guys (in this case 4) one tub full of ice water. Head underwater for 10 seconds, come up, slap each other, shotgun a beer. #soCOLLEGE
Here is the actual video of a "dunk-a-roo"


Then this was taken the day after the game....
Christine is our little pale friend, and that my friends is what happens on a hot game day in Blacksburg. #TANLINES

This was the status I was in during the game just a few moments after getting into the stadium and up into our seats. 
Hey at least I was smiling and excited! #selfiemode

Hope you all enjoyed my selfies and awkward/embarassing photos as much as I do, and I think it just shows that we can all learn to let go and laugh at ourselves every once in a while, it's totally worth it. 


Sunday, September 8, 2013

The Silver Lining

So I know this isn't going to be the most positive post for a Monday morning, but I promise it doesn't end that badly. I'll give ya'll a great re-cap of my weekend later, don't worry, it's not that exciting either. 

As a preface, some of you may or may not know this part of my story, but back in February of 2013 I was diagnosed with Crohn's disease, which is a type of "autoimmune disorder" or an "immune deficiency state" to be more politically correct I guess. Anyways, I have been struggling with this not only for the past few months, but for the past few years. Four to be exact. I started showing the non-typical symptoms of Crohn's as early as my junior year of high school, when I would have back and hip pain to the point where I couldn't get out of bed. It took so long for my doctors to figure out what was wrong for a few reasons:

1. That is a very young age to be starting to show symptoms of Crohn's. 
2. Like I mentioned, I was showing all of the non-typical symptoms, not the main gastrointestinal ones that doctors normally look for. 
3. I was going to all the wrong doctors, and too many different ones. No one doctor saw my full workup so they couldn't see the full picture of the problem. 
4. My symptoms were not steady. They would come and go sporadically and wouldn't really stay around long enough for my doctors to get to the bottom of it. 

Right now you are probably wondering, "okay, so what does this all mean? why are you telling us all this? what does this have to do with anything?" 

Well, the past few weeks I have been trying to get into a research study that was being conducted in the doctor's office that I go to, and it seemed like a really good opportunity. Although it was for an experimental drug, it was approved by the FDA already, I would be getting paid for my appointments every two weeks, and although I would have to undergo a lot of poking and prodding and blood work and things like that, the medicine would be free, I wouldn't have any co-pays for my appointments, and according to the other participants in the study, the medicine was working like a miracle to control their symptoms. It seemed like a dream come true, and the last few weeks I was waiting on a call from my doctor to see whether or not I qualified to participate in the study. And finally last week the call came through. 


Good news: all of my bloodwork came back and my numbers were "bad" enough that I qualified for the study. (when I say "bad" it means that my symptoms had to reach a certain level for them to deem the medication necessary for me, so "bad" numbers really meant good enough to get me into the study)

Bad news: the study was being discontinued and they are no longer taking any more participants at this time. 

I was heartbroken. I was on the phone with my doctor for a good 20 minutes after she told me that, and I don't really remember any of it. She was talking but I just wasn't listening. I was too busy just being upset about the fact that they teased me with this great opportunity and I went through 4 weeks of trials to see if I qualified, and the fact that I even qualified and then they discontinued it....it was just a lot of emotions all at once and ones I really didn't feel like having or dealing with at this time. 

So what is the next step? The whole reason I was even trying to get into this study was because the medicine that I am on now has stopped working as my Crohn's as progressed further and further. The next option for me is a type of medicine called an "immunosuppressant" which is a little bit scary to me. Although the medicine really will help me out in the long run (hopefully) it means that I will probably be getting sick a lot more than I usually do (which is already a TON), I won't be able to give blood, and overall there's a chance that I'm gonna feel pretty crappy on some days for no good reason. I think I am making it out to more than it really is, and I know things could be a lot worse. But that doesn't make it any easier. 

As usual Calvin always knows how to explain EXACTLY how I'm feeling.


So like I said, I know it could be a lot worse. But on top of working 20ish hours a week, taking 15 credits, and also trying to have a social life, starting a medicine that could potentially make me sick is a pretty scary thing to me, especially for my senior year. I don't want to spend it in bed sick. I know things will be okay, and I've got a great doctor who I love and I know that I can always figure something out with her if this doesn't work for me, but it really is scary. A 21 year old dealing with a chronic illness like this, it can be a lot for one person to handle. But it could always be worse. 

This week I'm just asking all of ya'll to cross your fingers a little bit for me in hopes that my appointments and everything go smoothly and this all ends up working out. Cause I mean really, that's all we really can do. 

I also hope you all are starting your Mondays off on a little bit of a better note than I am! This week will be a great week though, I can just feel it :) 




Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Comeback of the Year?


So let's start off by just making a little shout out to my "Sophomore Slump or Comeback of the Year" Fall Out Boy reference all the way back from 2007. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Fall Out Boy, and let's be honest, I still love them just as much as ever. ANYWAYS. 

On to the important things. 


I have been gone. Yes. I have been busy. But recently there have been a lot more things that have needed my attention rather than posting to Blogland. Unfortunately. I wish some days had like 50 hours so then I could maybe get everything I needed to do done, but that's not how it works. So now I have to prioritize, and my lovely blog fell a little lower on the list. Sorry Blog. I still love you<3

So to catch everyone up, I started my senior year. And it has been BEYOND crazy. I know that college is supposed to be fun and carefree and all of you college grads are gonna bitch at me about how hard the real world is. And I'm not saying it's not. But I'm also just saying that working 30 hours a week plus taking 5 senior level classes isn't the easiest thing I've ever done. I have barely had time to breathe these past two weeks, let alone see friends or anything like that. Well, sort of, but that is for another post. 

There have also been a few things that have been needing my attention more than this, and so I have been focusing on those rather than this. And it felt good, but I'm happy to be back. 

Okay, now I'm rambling. And I will stop. STOP. now.

Onto Goals....so apparently almost every blog I read everyone is deciding to do a "September Goals" post, which I LOVE and all, but wait why don't we do this every month? I think that would be a good trend to start. But without further ado, here is at least SOMETHING interesting in this post, sorry I made you read through all this other crap to get to it. 


- Don't fall behind on schoolwork. This is my last year as an undergrad and I am working my a$$ off to get into grad school, can't screw up at the beginning of the semester and ruin it for the whole year. 
- Make a decision about work. Right now I am working as a manager at the Calling Center, and just got a job as a Peer Career Advisor (basically exactly what I want to do with my life) and I am having a little more trouble than I expected juggling both of them. 
- Go to the gym 3x a week. I mean this one. 
- Pay off my credit card. This one is going to take more than a month, but I'm working on it. 
- Visit at least 1 grad school and fill out 1 application. 
- STUDY AND TAKE THE GRE. This really should be number 1. 
- Don't ignore my friends. When I get busy and stressed, they are the first thing in my life to get pushed to the back burner, and I don't want to be that person anymore.